This isn’t right. Sixteen year old’s should be out enjoying their life, doing what makes them happy. But it just seems nothing makes me happy anymore. Of course my amazing boyfriend does, but I feel like i’m just bringing him down with me. I’m constantly sad, i can’t deal with anything. I’m trying to be positive and to be that fun/bubbly girl i used to be but it’s all failing. Happiness is only temporary, as soon as i’m alone i feel everything fall apart, i can feel myself falling into a downward spiral where old habits are beginning to surface. Every day there is the constant battle between trying to be happy/social and just wanting to cuddle up in my room and cry. I can’t even explain to you what is going on inside my head, it’s like everything is just muddled up, i’m so confused. Negativity is taking over my life. I just can’t see the good in things anymore. I’ve been thinking about what could of triggered all this sadness to come back, and it’s the same old factors. Why am i so weak, why can’t i just fix this and move on.. cause i’m fucking pathetic that’s why. What is self control and motivation. Where’s my self-esteem and confidence. I lack everything that could fix all the problems. The worst thing is, there is not a soul that i can talk about this with, no-one understands or if i do tell them they just think i’m taking the piss. I feel alone, not only physically but emotionally too, i’ve lost almost everyone that’s ever meant anything to me. I just wish this could all change, i wish that i could could turn back time, why can’t this be simple.All my problems are tiny and insignificant compared to everyone else’s, everything in my life is irrelevant..